2010.
Another year for things to be perfect.
Until the carcasses awake and run their fingers down your spine
And leave a chill deep in your bones that even death could not subside.
Because when you expect too much you get nothing,
And I've done this all before
Makin wishes and getting no answers to the questions that I've wondered
Just how long I'm willing to be silence before my lungs explode from containing air
Songs to Sing to The Maurauder's Wife Vol. II
I.
And so we find ourselves here again.
Washed up on the shore and still searching for the land
A firm place to set our feet in before we collapse under the pressure of menaces
We'll look to the crooked legs, of bad dogs and joyful kids
Who run circles 'round the wishing well.
Throw in your pennies and sit a spell.
This is glory in a cage.
Lavished by the wind and the suns rays.
But still as beautiful as the day it began.
Throw in your pennies and wish again.
II.
Juliya, you are just a girl.
Eyes pointed skyward and your ear to the world.
Hearts-a-flutter will speak your name.
And sing their praises through your window pane.
They coming, calling you beautiful
Your eyes like pools of emeralds
The way you sway is a miracle.
But Juliya, you're just a girl
And they will call you their medicine.
The cure for broken hearts, and the temptress of many men.
Just don't forget where you once lived.
There's always a home for you here my friend.
III.
Passion is lost on those who will never seek the fire out before it dies.
They live reckless and pointless and sheltered lives.
They're all asleep while the world cries.
It will all flash black before their eyes.
What we wouldn't give to have the plight of the desert sands.
Surround by all your closest friends.
One step away from enternity
Not these miles between you and me.
IV.
Many men try to live in the sea.
Away from the world and it's chemistry
Away from sadness, anger and disease.
But you've got to reach dry land sometimes
Set your feet on solid ground
And rest your weary eyes
Because when you're so far away for so long
It's easy to be overtaken by everything going on.
The secrets of mariners remain in their minds
They do not reveal them when they die.
Adult/Child
I think you'll find that I have shared more of my life with a piece of paper than a human being
You can only dig so deep before I inevitably shut you down.
Because I don't consider that my life, my life is what I have now.
Before this, it was all an illusion, just a dream
I like to think that when I was a being beaten, it was all just a dream
That these mental scars that are etched into my mind are just that of my own imagination.
Because I couldn't live with myself if I thought otherwise
Because it's so hard to forgive when you've been hurt so much
So it helps to just forget.
I think you'll find that I have shared more of my life with a piece of paper than a human being.
And to tell you truth I want nothing more than to throw these pieces of paper from the highest rooftop
So you all can hear me scream.
I think you'll find that my life...
Only started about 3 years ago...
So I'm a 3 year old.
I'm still learning
I'm still growing
Like a newborn baby with a stunning vocabulary
Like I birthed myself when I walked out that goddamn door.
18 years all a blur
18 years of pain
18 years of suffering unjustly, and literally going insane.
18 years of broken hearts, bruises and being alone.
It took me 18 years to find that where I was
Was no where that I would call home.
You can only dig so deep before I inevitably shut you down.
Because I don't consider that my life, my life is what I have now.
Before this, it was all an illusion, just a dream
I like to think that when I was a being beaten, it was all just a dream
That these mental scars that are etched into my mind are just that of my own imagination.
Because I couldn't live with myself if I thought otherwise
Because it's so hard to forgive when you've been hurt so much
So it helps to just forget.
I think you'll find that I have shared more of my life with a piece of paper than a human being.
And to tell you truth I want nothing more than to throw these pieces of paper from the highest rooftop
So you all can hear me scream.
I think you'll find that my life...
Only started about 3 years ago...
So I'm a 3 year old.
I'm still learning
I'm still growing
Like a newborn baby with a stunning vocabulary
Like I birthed myself when I walked out that goddamn door.
18 years all a blur
18 years of pain
18 years of suffering unjustly, and literally going insane.
18 years of broken hearts, bruises and being alone.
It took me 18 years to find that where I was
Was no where that I would call home.
Fucked Up Head - A Story Of Abuse
The lips,
and the eyes...
How beautifully they....no...
Oh the split lips and the black eyes,
Screaming no, no, but it doesn't help.
Because he's...
Drank to much
Because he's...
Lost touch
His...
Reality is skewed
And he won't remember it tomorrow
But you'll wear the evidence on your face like a badge
He'll say he's sorry, but does he ever really mean it?
When his fist finally open, can you stand his fucking touch?
I'd wait,
I'd pray
How dangerously we've....no...
I'd wait until he's sleeping,
And then I'd pray nobody finds him,
Because I'm done living in his ruins
He's done ruining your family
Take the kids and run away from this
Let them know just what you've
Tell them daddy won't be joining us
You're through with the things he's done.
They'll understand it when they're older
They'll see a hero in your eyes
Because you saved them from a monster
Without you they would have died.
Everyone said that you should leave him.
But they just turned the other way.
God forbid they tried to help you
You did your own way.
The abusers deserves just what they get
But it never takes away the pain.
Because the split lips and black eyes
It takes more than water to wash away.
Peace.
and the eyes...
How beautifully they....no...
Oh the split lips and the black eyes,
Screaming no, no, but it doesn't help.
Because he's...
Drank to much
Because he's...
Lost touch
His...
Reality is skewed
And he won't remember it tomorrow
But you'll wear the evidence on your face like a badge
He'll say he's sorry, but does he ever really mean it?
When his fist finally open, can you stand his fucking touch?
I'd wait,
I'd pray
How dangerously we've....no...
I'd wait until he's sleeping,
And then I'd pray nobody finds him,
Because I'm done living in his ruins
He's done ruining your family
Take the kids and run away from this
Let them know just what you've
Tell them daddy won't be joining us
You're through with the things he's done.
They'll understand it when they're older
They'll see a hero in your eyes
Because you saved them from a monster
Without you they would have died.
Everyone said that you should leave him.
But they just turned the other way.
God forbid they tried to help you
You did your own way.
The abusers deserves just what they get
But it never takes away the pain.
Because the split lips and black eyes
It takes more than water to wash away.
Peace.
How Beautifully Leaves Grow Old
My heart is an open wound and a book.
Writing pages of banter
To pull the sheets from the bed of our lovers.
No one will sleep here tonight because my song hasn't yet been sung.
And by the time you realize,
Just what the ghost that haunts you wants.
It may already be to late to save your soul.
And by the day you take your last breath
I may have already moved onto my next victim
No one will sleep
No one will hear
I will defy the earth and cleanse the air
Make a mockery, of what your eyes have seen.
And you will all crumble before the ghost of me.
How beautifully leaves grow old.
How full of light and color are their last days.
They'll fall to mother earth just like a child
Begging to be held
And no one will sleep here because I will pierce your ears with the sound of my exaggerations.
Once I am buried in the sky you really know just what I meant when I said "fly".
Writing pages of banter
To pull the sheets from the bed of our lovers.
No one will sleep here tonight because my song hasn't yet been sung.
And by the time you realize,
Just what the ghost that haunts you wants.
It may already be to late to save your soul.
And by the day you take your last breath
I may have already moved onto my next victim
No one will sleep
No one will hear
I will defy the earth and cleanse the air
Make a mockery, of what your eyes have seen.
And you will all crumble before the ghost of me.
How beautifully leaves grow old.
How full of light and color are their last days.
They'll fall to mother earth just like a child
Begging to be held
And no one will sleep here because I will pierce your ears with the sound of my exaggerations.
Once I am buried in the sky you really know just what I meant when I said "fly".
Vast Winter (Pt.1 - The Finale)
I...
I can feel the cold freezing my life away but I can't seem to stop it.
I hear the crunch of snow as people walk by my soon to be corpse.
Can't they hear me, can't they see me?
Do they care about the things that I have seen?
These questions are considered unimportant by the wind
As it blows across my face and steals my breath away.
It's just so cold...
I lose the ability to move, and warmth overcomes me.
Like a movie in my brain, my life flashes before me.
Against all my will, my body is betraying me.
It's letting go of the little threads of life.
Can't you see me!
Can't you hear me!
The vast winter is like any other before.
But I'll never see another one again...
THE END.
I can feel the cold freezing my life away but I can't seem to stop it.
I hear the crunch of snow as people walk by my soon to be corpse.
Can't they hear me, can't they see me?
Do they care about the things that I have seen?
These questions are considered unimportant by the wind
As it blows across my face and steals my breath away.
It's just so cold...
I lose the ability to move, and warmth overcomes me.
Like a movie in my brain, my life flashes before me.
Against all my will, my body is betraying me.
It's letting go of the little threads of life.
Can't you see me!
Can't you hear me!
The vast winter is like any other before.
But I'll never see another one again...
THE END.
The Death Of Superman
Don't call me amazing.
Because I'm not.
I'm not any better than the...
Single mother trying to raise a kid on her own
Because the deadbeat father up and
Ran away.
I'm not a superhero anymore because
To call me a hero after seeing the magic of two people in love
Would just be
Ridiculous.
I may
Save lives
and I may
always be there
But have you ever been held in the arms of someone who's truly
Always There?
Love is like a row of mended white fences,
It doesn't always start out perfect but if you work at it enough
It will take your breath away.
Like the first kiss of realizing that this one is the one.
The first touch of another,
just dying to become one
with you.
I may come from another planet, but I tell
Love is other worldy too.
It's like a whole other universe where nothing ever goes wrong
Where life is worth living.
So don't call me amazing.
I'm not the superhero you want.
That's a job better left to her eyes.
Because I'm not.
I'm not any better than the...
Single mother trying to raise a kid on her own
Because the deadbeat father up and
Ran away.
I'm not a superhero anymore because
To call me a hero after seeing the magic of two people in love
Would just be
Ridiculous.
I may
Save lives
and I may
always be there
But have you ever been held in the arms of someone who's truly
Always There?
Love is like a row of mended white fences,
It doesn't always start out perfect but if you work at it enough
It will take your breath away.
Like the first kiss of realizing that this one is the one.
The first touch of another,
just dying to become one
with you.
I may come from another planet, but I tell
Love is other worldy too.
It's like a whole other universe where nothing ever goes wrong
Where life is worth living.
So don't call me amazing.
I'm not the superhero you want.
That's a job better left to her eyes.
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